Random pages from my book in progress:
They trained us hard, physical torture was part of routine, but we were still called “pussies” and not taken seriously, like our Alpha males. And if boys couldn’t perform on a level, they were called pussies as well, or the stronger version – “pizda nestroevaya”(c*nt out of line – excuse my French). Men were in charge, always. We were encouraged and trained to be diplomatic, charismatic and apply sexual power without a trace of shame and hesitation; physical power was the last resource. We were taught to use every part of the body as a weapon, in all possible ways, directly and indirectly.
However we were not in demand for military missions with boys, because it would distract them, and instead of concentrating on a mission, they would feel obliged to protect us.
We were told it was based on instincts impossible to ignore. Men feel like protecting women, it’s their way of responsibility for survival of the next generations, because there is always a chance that woman is pregnant. And same – because of possibility of pregnancy women can not be as fearless as men as they have responsibility for the next generation survival. There were gender mixed teams, but separate ones worked best, apparently.
We were used for “cleaning jobs” as well, when no trace of evidence was required. You know what I mean – to pick up body parts and stuff after explosions etc..
“Cleaner” is also a term for a person who kills assassins, after they did the job. Yes, we were trained and used for such missions as well, I will talk about it later on..
What was it like being tortured? It was a bit different from Alpha men. They would go as far as possible as long as there were no damage to our precious oh so useful looks. For example, skin burning and super powerful head punches were used only on boys. They were “easy” on us – water boarding, beatings with wet towels (it doesn’t leave traces), electric shocks and…..
To be continued.